31.7.08 ' 7/31/2008 05:32:00 AM
Hello. FRED here.
Hello. im now in my new house.
so messy , so many things to put and rearrange. ha. =)
pretty good and locatioon not bad. accesible. mama shop just below my blk.
coffeeshopp just opposite bus stop too. ha. quite noisy theree.
what a day.! we didnt pon school and stayed. NOT ALL PAIN IS GAIN.
lesson quite sian. sorry that i didnt contribute much. im soorry.
hais. cant let this continue. UT today, killling, sure die can only answer first 2 qns.
sux. who the one set this ut. wan kill us. anw better moderate well then.
science ut 3 out liao. not a bad grade. not even meet half of the total marks.
think they moderated alot. =) save zone. hope ut4 can get B or A.
nth much happen jus now, lunch break saw mj eyecandy.
crapped with see ling at cafe @ foodcourt A.
wanted to go back class, i stopped them.
we shld do somthing abt it. so flipped the coin, shown 2 head. that mean
we shld go ahead and ask him. eventually saw JH there too
so ask him along. he thought we goin beat him. ha.
but HS eventually come with a lie for his @. ha. =) stupid excuses.
tired tired. gonna rearrange my things liao.
maybe ltrr then post more.
Labels: signing off FRED
30.7.08 ' 7/30/2008 07:44:00 AM
FRED
Hello all. Soorry , cant really update daily, no time arg... so pack.
Write write. =0 tired. shagged.
goin to thursday liao, ut at 9am. haven even studis nor revise.
somemore tmr moving house liao, sad.
Hmmm not bad also, cant really stay at a particular place for too long.
must change environment. gotta missss 888 mee kia and chicken culet mee.
especially the curry chick from inside... sob sob.
alot of missesss. cant go down tekong slack. have been there for past few mths.
like a place to hang my soul ard freely.
now the distance is far, not really far but still far. bus cant reach.
walk to there, too long and shagged. how man!!!
go home far go mrt far everything far sia. why i keep moaning ah.
something not right sia, never have this feel-ling before. like lose something precious.
okay stop moaning liao. enough liao. =))
LOL. duno what wrong wiitth people nowadays.
sso many emo kids, terrible people. this doesnt make up the world.
pls peopple stop those emo leh. sickening lol. want talk to your also must see mood
what the fish lol. words are without action = rubbish. anytime we can trash talk this person
in the end who lose out. we are the one. we lose them as friend. we spott their mistake
and we dont tell them= murdering them= killing killling.
sometime we people dont accept it until something gone. then we will look into it. too late liao.
cant tolerate people emoing sia, so stupid.!!! waste their time and energy thinkin something
not relevance, emo so good meh. lol. cant understand.
somemore affect yrself and others, yr think is fair lah.
fair to other?? soul-searching. everyday can see ppl emo.
why ah why ah. what wrong? dont like the current thing?
want the thing to change for u? jus wait lol. maybe can pray too.
why not we are the one who change? change to understand.
imagine urself in other shoe. we are also difficult to make decision.
actually we don want to like that. is what your action freezes us and
like want to change channel also cant. simply struck and what can we do?
nth. to tell or not. isnt that important at all. the most important
do u think being like this, is what u wan? no one can stop. things usually.
omg thinking of how to make lots of money $$. $ usually satisfied ppl.
do this cannot , do that also cannot then what to do.
do can but cost alot lol. therre is alway ways. we just dont see the door.
hoping someone will discover me, great talent. maybe. hahah.
wantin to cut hair, but relucant. omg. procastination person.
if not i wont be in this situation, and shapes. bad habit jus cant be kick off.!arg.
its killin me.
write till here liao. shagged. =) night alls...
CALL ME FRED!!!
Labels: fred fred rocks.
28.7.08 ' 7/28/2008 08:35:00 AM
here i go.
hello all. it was comin to an end of 28/7
last post was fri i think. few days didnt online for that long.
was busy this few days. came back from holland v doing those crap.
bored bored. moving house soon. =) Sian.
tmr UT again. sickening. tired of revise so be it.
Bored boredbored. my mind totally blank. thank god u let me feel this way
what is faith to me, and to others. 5 letters yet complicated.
looking ard us, and you will be surpise. so funny. yet i cant tell what so funny.
if one day, key this in (dim me as invisible)
somehow i think i had made a bad decision for the work.
this boss ah, fussy, understandable at times, irritating, lazy, impatient.
so many things can describe him and ppl dont like him.
i find out more, somehow i think im off the track doing thing that wasnt related to what it supposed to be.
sighs. tired. was randomly reading staff from net.
stuffs abt aries. sound good and could be true.
selfishness almost caught me away, i can feel this
selfishness within myself, simply controlling me. but i alway feel this selfishness in people.
they selfish that all of them deserved a chance but, ppl simply destroy the chance.
for their own pressure, they are like devil, clearing all possible way.
shouldnt ppl give them a chance, a chance might change a person life.
Im as bad as what you think, impatient, intolerant, selfish, jealousy, procrastination,
egotistical attitude , causing offence, lies,love at first sight, heedless ,
true optimists,sentimental,foolhardy and impulsive.
so many words to describle me, let be it. check it.
prove this to be true. those words represent me so make me down then.
night all. tired signing oofff.
Labels: call me FRED then, start afresh
25.7.08 ' 7/25/2008 09:02:00 PM
Rain. . .
Afternoon everyone =)
Cold afternoon. rain again ><
im hungry anw. got to go buy something eat soon.
wowwowow. today is junhong and haishi bdae plus bbq .
hope the weather dont spoil our mood.
Happy birthday to JUNHONG and HAISHI.
Old liao, must cherish everything wor. becoming young adults le.
mostly important stay healthy and believe in yourself.
Ytd trainning for the cafe thingy, not use to it. somemore kena cheated!
thought he say want teach me cook in the end, serve customer. everyone
talk bad about him, only know how to sit there and do nth.
anw manage to know some of the staff, one from RP too. my senior.
same course too.
very very very tired. argggg!!!!! sudden collapsed.
im tired of seeing you, you are pretending to be a lovely person
you are so fake, you dont know your limits. you dont know how people feel
you think this is a playground. you show your weakness.
simple yet complicated. i dont know what you want or you are dooling
about the past.
the hardest thing in the world is know what simple people are thinking.
so simple that we dontknow their next move. just like chess, we can predict all the possible
but we jus dunno which step he goonna take or mayb trying to confuse us
by taking the other step which was not advisabe.
we alway think for ourselve, to win i have to this and that, jus by doin those things,
simply cant let us win. we need friends and help from people.
i have do my part and they have to do their part, like this we make one whole.
walking in the rain, might be common to many of you. but walkin in the rain
let us think more, emo people like do that. emo emo emo.
one influence can affect a grp. jus like singin, u need lysic
but they sing without lysic which was not good, they dunno what they doin, can or cannot
im hungry hungry hungry. catch yr later. =).
24.7.08 ' 7/24/2008 07:27:00 AM
rainy rainy
Hello all again time to crap liao
This few day kinda tired, duunno why pain here and there.
seee ppl ard us suffer, emoing , quarrel simply dont let me feel good eiither.
so just hope this dont happen so often, life can be fun when we think positively right
LIFE=Live In Fun Environment . doesnt it make more sense.
This week comin to an end liao, tmr jiu fri.
Culture, This faci really good understand us, someone who have experience it before. =)
Late twice for this week, dunno why, i think my bed got super glue
stick me and stick me, dont let me wake up ha.
tmr got training for my new job in hoolland V wah super far.
hope can learn something from there + earn $$$
anyway dont feel okay this feew days.
fear within myself, me and I
trying not to be myself but still i cant defeat my devil within.
hate it when it attacked me, to end it i have to be cruel to continue life
thing spoil can be replace but this is something cant refund one.
once sold and there are non-refundable. make it even harder..
unless there are other dimension which can open for me, to look after me
which was what seem to lack within me for years, ppl cant understand
how other feel when something happpen or abt to happen.
nvr cherish it and let our mind vanish within the thin air.
tired jus finish rj, really feel guilt for PS him again back to back/
hope he wont hold against us. i know he wont but i can assure he dont.
Brazil coming SIngapore liao. cool ticket damm exp sia . !!!
Chelsea in Asia liao cool, This season expected them to be much betterr then last season
hope to see them score more goalllls.
Pon sch to watch dark Knight. Batman so cool,
armor llook so stylo. ha all so cool.
JOKER nvr die, if die he cant joke with Bat liao =)
why so serious !!!! ha
and went to LJS slack.
waiting for BOss, Jian ming.hhaa. tall guy again.
went to lau pa sat to enjoy the nice food.
cool the food simply irresistible. nice nice. shld go there
somemore got GE tai . haha. see those CHIO BU singin
cant understand what they singin , pollute the environment. !!!
then walk ard, walk untill lost . thank arh.
lucky there was a mrt nearby. ha tahjong pajar sound far right
hahha. what an unexpected day.
okok. time to sleep liao. stay happy alll. =))))
22.7.08 ' 7/22/2008 08:00:00 AM
bored.
hello all
Blog again, great determination i have. =) to blog everyday.
congrat me, to overcome it hhaa. all thank to myself.
promoting self-esteem.
Check it out, what happen today, force myself to wake up!!!
omg didnt know my alarm clock spoil, lack of battery.
lucky ii can wake up on time.
reached sch as usual, today Ut hope can get good grade.
Wow surpise computin ut2 grade not bad =)
today faci, different look so young like our age. talked alot overall quite nice guy
i think he got lots of suitor, with his great influence ability sure can make alot girlls for him. =)
cool faci we have for today nia.
maybe today jus not the day to be happy abt. now nth seem to be as importan as last time.
life still like that, changin new environment soon. am i adaptable, i shall see.
life without aim now, abit lost i assume.. am i doin the right thing , makin the right decision?
things nvr change but our minds changes changes..
hate people who without knowin, eventually bring other people to heaven
and then bring them down to hell.
dont play people ard, as u don wan other to play you. i suppose.
bored. i nvr nvr understand myself well duno what i shld do but jus live on.
lookin for purposes in life, maybe all of us has gone through it.
sudden sudden emotions, emo time and shall reflect on it.
soul searching and nights nights.
Labels: one of the EMOs day
21.7.08 ' 7/21/2008 07:51:00 AM
LATE late/
today late for lesson. not i wan to lateee.
because of the weather so nice to sleeepppp. =p
wake up at 8 but drag until 9 then go sch. cool. since already late.
1min also late 1 hr also same. so walked slow lols. no rush.
LOL. look ard the path to rp. there are still students walkin to sch. =.=
culture again, strange topic lol.
"I WISH I KNEW"
think abt what we did in the past! dont wanna do it again. eeek.
was very slack today, didnt do much actually. discuss the w/s every qns.
somehow understand then start our PPT
in the end our ppt different other but somehow got ans the problem today. =)
REGRET and more regret
why got this word? lol. good or bad.
changing ppl ard us.
every decision i made, there is alway a outcome,
some outcome is long termm,
some outcome is short term.
enough of this !
just went to HOLLAND VILLAGE for interview in SETTLER
A cafe, not bad, unique from other cafe,
this cafe got board games to play! wow.
if i work there, must how to play 20games sia OMG
pay really sux, timing not good also, but most importantly.
can learn cooking, cookin cooking.
my first steepping i assume. where everythin start frm basic
must learn this and that.
this decision could be vital,
success or not, really depend on oneself
so let work on it.. ... .. .. .. =)
wow first time been to holland village
look so unique, short houses where shops ard.
alot of cafes , resturant and shop ard =)
alot ang moh too, rich ppl also. look so dao. irony!!!
a good place to slack which will cost lots,
middle aged range, probably in the future will see me there
hahaa...
Gonna eat alll the good foods in singapore!!!
if not what the point of living =
let live life to fullest and fill our stomach with all the wonderful tastes.
arggg tmr got ut mus wake up early =)
hope for a B really!!!!
nights alll. see ya.
20.7.08 ' 7/20/2008 06:51:00 AM
Cant sleep.
cant cant sleep sleep. aghhhh.....
thinking alot of the things, alot and alot. endless thougths. endless emotions
endless quarrel endless nights endless lyrics to describe my feelin now.
I believe that there is alway a door for people like us, to walk out of this dark place and
to reach out for the light to continue life. There is alway an exit.
hand is shakin , my fingers got a cut. argg pain ah pain ah.
my mind cant focus now, keep moving.
I realised something keep smile often led us to become a retarded person,
so is best not to smile. sorry all if this happen . i cant guarantee.
enviroonment changes people, on how we reflect things .
everything start from basic, like ABC and 123.
so the best for us now is to spend abt short time on our things.
to be successful, we need to put in alot effort,
not individual but a grp.
Are we confidence?
Yes we are confidence. Nvr give up.
trust urself, self esteem is important. right.
not how ppl look at yyou.
when ppl see until sian they wont be give much comment liao.
good night allll. dammm tired.
mind freezing.....................
ended.
' 7/20/2008 04:27:00 AM
Tired Day. =)
Sorry all didnt update it daily. Abit lazy to do it, relucant and feel like nth much to say. =)
Ytd went to fren's house tonning, was playing FIFA 08 lol. Damm fun. graphics is good , plus sound effect also not bad. Play till morning, ard 6am, totally KO, fall asleep and wake up at 8am to accompany them to GYM lol.
As usual, drag here and there. went to bishan stadium there for gym.. reach there ard 10 i think,
surprising, there was alot of ppl , so pack but manage to spend my precious time on those equipment. Instruction friendly, able to understand easily =) good. Getting my fitness back now.
Workout until 1130, bathed and headed to BIshan LJS, for lunch =) and that we went to suuntec.
Look for my friend's friend lol. At the carrefour, walk in and out lol, machiam shoopin mall.
nvr expected them to walk ard carrefour to taste the sample of the foods and drinks. eat alot and drink alot, free but not full. repeated a few times and i was really lack of sleep. whenever there is a place for me to sit, i will fall asleep. luckily didnt really sleep, if not i wont be here bloogging liao.
Arggg!!! muscule pain pain. gym effect!!! too strong liao. hahaa.
anw tired to think now, let my mind rest and prepare myself for tmr. 24 hrs without proper sleepp. suffering. why ppl like to stay up late ah. wondering.
Just had my dinner , rest awhile i jiu go sleep liao. =) Goodnight everyone.
18.7.08 ' 7/18/2008 08:32:00 AM
miss your
few days didnt update blog liao
bet all of your waiting for me to update
i shall blog now. =)
Friday's night as usual, went to play basket
thought got alot ppl but end up they left at 8 +
that too fast ><
Kuku sia, my little fingers injuried!! third and fourth finger!
OMG damm pain, keepin bleeding ><
i feel like fainting, dunno why i feel so weak my whole was so cold
cant see properly!! luckily nth happen. heng heng. thought i goonna fall sick again.
Since ytd i feel so tired, alway yawning arggg!!! dunno why.
my eye closing -.- maybe lack of sleep.!! or think too much liao
ytd pon computing , damm sian. i know what to do but jus cant write that freaking code out.!
which eventually spoil our day, with hai shi, mei jun and lina we pon then headed to library
begin our studies of psychology. borrow some books but yet to read. feel so tired. jus need some time to adapt again. change for a better. crapped our way to ciity hall. took us 37min to reach.
dunno where they heading too, went to esplanade for screeniing. watchin lame jap horror movie!
no ghost sia, waited 1 hr. im scared, i hate watchin it! goos the sound effect damm suux.
from a guy i become a girl hidin behind my bf hahaha, LINA didnt know she dont scare!
then we watched the liar liar, old movie.
supper funnny lol. from the start laugh till the end.
does wishes really come true, this show proven it!! haha.
opps supposed to end at 730 but we watch until 745 cool.
still early, went to outside of esplanade. jus happen that the moon is in between
the two durian thingy, look a pic of it cant really see our faces but it will serve as a memories
to us. that day that time. =)
went ard the esplanade, saw merlion, wow the scenary was so nice.
windy and nvr had this feelin before so shuang.
love it love it =)
was dreamin something big really big!!
gotta stoppin game and focus. =)
First time went out with them, cool enjoyed. jus like we had met each other for long long time.
we shall alway go out after school, left 3wks don let this spoil our mood
and f/s still carry on =) nvr nvr break. by saying is easy, let prove the sentence wrong.
okok. doin rj now, eye closin soon. take cares guys.... happy weekend. +)=)
14.7.08 ' 7/14/2008 08:28:00 AM
Hello all. few days nvr blog liao. Miss me right =) here I am.
Today super early wake up sia, 7am jiu up liao =) see i so guai. Sha. used the com awhile then went to kitchen make my breakfast. cool. future chef wannabe. nth much to cook at home, no ingredient. >< only got egg and sauages. Suddenly jiu rain liao, so heavy lol. lucky nvr go out at that that time. almost late for school.
super sian iin class, monday bluuess. nth to happy abt, i not really happy with my life and i feel that i lack of something but i dunno what the thing i llack of. something that cannot use money to buy Priceless wu jia. lollolololololololololololol......
Perhaps i think men actually sensitive, ppl usually dont realise. simple thing can think until so complex, if not u go try lol. maybe my templates different from others, im those kind that think alot, imagine my future=) cool. what u did to me, ii will rmb. i will return double of it to u. we shall see to it. =)
Lalala. i find that culture lesson getting more and more interesting lol. the faci quite good =) its true. but the ang moh wth sia. anyhow grade sia. 1st time shld give nice grade. =.= his eng too chim and too soft like gay sia wth.. but he can be good listener quite sporty person. cool.
just now saw lol frenz tall and short, both messy sia. mayb is style opps. ha. cant see their face clearly. decision within our hand, either we make it or dont . simple right. llookin for job after this semester money not enough sia. today class back to normall, jus like last time, laughter fill the room, today topic killin i feel that the faci dont seem to like the thing i say wor. give tt LL face no expression dunno what she thinkin lol.
I wan to go this place, wher we will sit there to eat instant noodles , drink chysanthem tea and the moon is the only light we will see. cool will you?
11.7.08 ' 7/11/2008 11:29:00 AM
So late liao, yawn yawn want sleep liao. =)
today's lesson was interesting, talk and crap during the meeting and even in the presentation. totally by my creativity, actually every move we made , there are motive behind. faci pretty good, shared abt her exp with us, a journalist discover by someone, feel good knowing her, i think she is unique person. Like when we was small, parents start to influence my thinkin, dont smoke , gamble and hang out with bad company. everyday say the same, hear liao also sian. from there our thinkin tell us not to smoke and when i come across this , i will rmb what my parents say.
this few days gootta miss u, it u. u know who i refer to. i tried not to see u but i failed, dunno why. i nvr being in this state before nvvr nvr, i feel like tt before really. why cant u believe me ?
it is tt hard to believe, i know i lik to crapp but i wont crap this type of thing really. cuuuiiiii.
if im a psychologist, u are the first person i wan to know what u thinkin now. so complex, i cant guess , it is not a guessing game........
10.7.08 ' 7/10/2008 09:43:00 AM
Raining day =)
Raining day, since morning. longlife rain. not bad can sleep well tonight. =)
Today was boring day, Vb ut and vb problem both tgt . seh seh. didnt do my part today, left them in class and went out walk , slack and eat. went to libary de cafe, sit for awhile chit chat then go foodcourt A buy ice milk tea and chicken burger. Wow the chicken burger taste like mac chicken sia, shock when i eat it. Almost the same taste but cheaper =) tomolo shall go and buy again => the ice milk tea also quite nice. ha.
today changed Faci lols, Ang moh faci, his english cao chim sia. So gentle , speak so soft but overall he was not bad bah, dunno the grade will be good not. Vb cao chim sia, jialat cant even make a program now. sorry faci we let u down again. nvm gotta find a way now. I rather face the reality than to avoid it, what for we avoid it, somemore we paid school fee to avoid it. Mayb this will be a joke to people haha stupid waste money only. I totally regretted , not to study well in sec sch. waste what a good school with good teachers around willing to help us, especially my form teacher, i know its too late for to say this but it had been inside my heart for very long liao. Last time we used to call him cao lim ( smellly lim) cause we dont like him, personality will spit. sometime good , bad. Especially when mid year tt time most of us did badly kena F by him , wao lao tt time super ps sia. I wan to see your parents tmr. Then i was like wtf, parents again. not only see him , but go see principal wtf. 1st time in my life ( a date with prinipal ) thought chatting only in the end turn out to be scolding session , wah pia he didnt give face sia, in front of my mama scold till siao shout here and there. the whole room only his sound sia stupid. after tt session kena grounded omg 1st time in my life also. what a suay year. lols. somemore cant go home after must stay in school till 630 like kena probation in sch. sch gg close then we can go. =.= somemore i got the stupid DNT project , wtf again lol JUNE holiday must go back sch for coursework and somemore cant finish must stay for tt stupid dnt camp. LOL. the workshop packed with so many ppls of cause cant finish , somemore my class got kia su kia keep pesturin the instructor , can help me this and tt. instructor ur dog ah! no hand no leg lols. then they finish first , so we hardworkin ppl suffer lol. cant finish on tt day, siao liao lol stay for the camp. changed my design alot of time sian sian recall tt time , wao pia damn low morale. At least got this grp of frenz my class de and other class. went to slack alot lol. explore the whole and wentout of sch lols. MIssed those days.
Dont see me like tt cheerful de, actually i have alot of things to say but i chose not too. what for say out sia. no point by sayin cant help do now or later the result is still the same. actually im quite an emo person , everyone is emo no need to say de. is how we express it only, some choose to give a dull face , some hide one corner, some eat alot , some show attitude. get use to it and probably will do us good.
4mths past. people tend to change within this short period of time, only common interest click tgt well other not. today something weird happen, there was a stranger in our class, i felt she wasnt the same as she used to be. now i really know this world isnt tt simple at all, i thought if will cooperate tgt we will reach our goals, but this is not the true. they are ppl who sabo ppl talk behind their back but this is common. dont u agree. everything we do tend to have motive behind it, to know what other motive its better not to say, the greatest threat is post by our words. so think before we say if not sometime it will be very hurt to other. hope any who read this understand what saying.
last thing, if i cut my hair, that mean i want to start a new afresh forgetting those unpleasant and to give myself more space and not waste my time on her anymore wwhom i think , dont understand . decide lied within oneself, cant be change by anyone.
9.7.08 ' 7/09/2008 08:56:00 AM
time to crap. =)
Rainy day, YU TIAN. 8 july morning.
Nth much to blog. Life as usual, hit my alarm when ring, then continue sleep. Cool the weather so shuang coldcold de, just nice hiding in my blanket. =) then do something, then jiu chiong to bus stop. Freak sia, the bus stop kena removed! need to walk an extra mile daily like 200m away from previous stop. Aiyo board the bus, sometime got so many ppl sometime so little lols. so random sia. want to get down also hard SUX.
sO sian lol life why? everyday same routine.! wake up wash up go sch bully by friend bully friend go for break lunch breakfast DI sim. what is this !!! we simply cant live life to it fullness. we mus be creative aat time if not continue like that hhor , sure no morale to do work de. no morale = see thing black and white not exciting at all. . . nth exciting without ur presence. see you laugh smile stupid look tongue stick out angry face pig face and your voices soft sweet cute at time sexy lols. true not bluffing. every single word i stated, through the times. time tell the truth maybe u didnt notice anything perhap it not easy, sayin is not enough and one day i will show u.. when u realise it maybe everything will . . .
why w-h-y. so late I still blogging, somehow i miss something badly, that my frenz. we being together for 6 years liao. being through alot of thing. 6 year say long also not long , say short also not short, what to do. off pressure being with them somehow each of them changes, not use to be the one we used to be. let meet one day and have our dinner at botak yishun. haa =) cool.
late liao siao liao still got alot to say, maybe tmr i cont blogging, tmr still got Ut sia. this faci really good , i nvr thought that he will come to our class today cause ytd night i ask him how ah the vb code how ah how ah. then i thought what sia, ask me go inform then about this lol. shock.
i hate you cause you make me _ _ _ _ you. !!!
